Interview and Idol

I had a group interview yesterday. I hated it. It was so weird and uncomfortable. I hope I never have to do it again. I hate job interviews in general. I am terrible about selling myself. I get asked a question and I can't really come up with a great answer on the spot. Ten minutes later, I can probably have this great answer that I should have given. That's the way it is with me. I can't just think on the spot like that. I like to have a plan. Interviews are not good for people who don't do well thinking on the spot. Anyways, I tried watching American Idol when I got home last night, but I fell asleep. I watched the rest of it this morning. I liked Kris and Allison. I didn't really care for Matt. Danny was ok. The chosen one was again placed last. Will they ever make him sing first or second? Seriously... I kind of feel sorry for the guy, because when he wins, he isn't going to be able to do what he would be good at (which is Broadway). I don't want him to win. I don't think he should win, but I think he will win because of the shameless promotion of him by the judges and the producers. It disgusts me.

After I typed this, I read the following from Max Lucado's book "Grace For The Moment" Volume II. It was yesterday's reading, that I forgot to read.

" Never Alone

I will not forsake my people. 1 Kings 6:13 NKJV

The Lord is with us. And, since the Lord is near, everything is different. Everything!....You may be facing unemployment, but you aren't facing unemployment alone; the Lord is with you....
Underline these words: You are not alone"

I left out some of what he said and this was an excerpt from his book Traveling Light. Anyways, it was just not to hear from someone else that I am not alone. God is with me. He knows the direction my life is supposed to go and even though I don't, I need to trust him. That's one of the things I struggle with is trust. The other is patience and I know that God is teaching me both at this time in my life.

Some things you knew and some you didn't

Well, I've been thinking and I've compiled a list of things about myself or that I want to do.

1. I freak out when people come up behind me. My whole right side of my body tenses up. It's really strange. In fact, if someone is standing too close, I get paranoid that they are going to try and come up behind me. Yah, I'm weird.

2. I love presents. I love to give them and I love to get them. I hate wrapping them.

3. I love making things.


5. I can probably count on my fingers the number of dates I've been on.


7. I'm a city girl, but I've always dreamed of living in the country.

8. I can read a book in a few hours.

9. I love to read. I can read the same book over and over again.

10. I probably own over 100 books.

11. I have some friends who call me Yodie.

12. In college, my sorority nickname was Wonder Woman.

13. I love to travel with family or friends.

14. I want to visit all 50 states.

15. I want to go to Europe.

16. I hate the cold. It should only be cold when it snows. Since it doesn't snow here, it shoudn't be cold.

17. I don't know if I've gone to the beach this summer.

18. I love going out on the boat with my friend's family.

19. I usually see a dolphin, but I can never get a picture.

20. When I see a yellow butterfly, I normally think of it as God's way of cheering me up. I use to see them in college a lot. There's a story behind that.

21. I have a problem with saying no.

22. I absolutely love Christmas.

23. I make my own Christmas cards every year.

24. This year I was in two weddings in back to back weekends. The bride always tells you, you will be able to wear that dress again, but you never do.

25. I recently lost my job and have been looking for another one. It's definitely not easy.

26. I have a fear of falling due to my cousing holding me over a waterfall when I was 5.

27. I went to Jamaica on a missions trip and I got a bad sunburn, almost fell down a waterfall, and hit on the head by a guitar.

28. I went to Peru on a missions trip and got sick, because someone pretended they were going to push me off a mountain.

29. I went to Brazil on a missions trip and saw a big spider.

30. I went to Las Vegas with my family for a week and we traveled to 4 different states.

31. I saw the Grand Canyon. (This did not help me overcome my fear of falling).

32. While riding rides at the fair, I tend to think of the worst case scenario. i.e. what happens if this chain on the swings breaks, will they stop the ride? Do I just hang on until the ride stops?

33. I worry. A LOT.

34. I tend to overanalyze things sometimes.

35. I'm not very patient, but God's trying to teach me patience.

36. Technically, I'm homeless. I have a place I live, but it's not really home because all my things are in storage.

37. I lived in Florida for a summer.

38. I've lived in all three counties in the tri-county area.

39. I've never ridden a horse. I've sat on one, but I got scared. (That was a long time ago).

40. I'm thinking if I want to find a cowboy, I might need to learn to ride a horse.

41. I love to sing, but not in front of people.

42. Sometimes I can get extremely hyper and then I get loud.

43. I'm usually quiet around people I don't know.

44. I'm definitely quiet around guys I don't know. I guess I get intimidated. Who knows.

45. You know I'm comfortable around you if I'm talkative.

46. I love to knit, although I haven't done it in awhile.

47. I love to scrapbook. I currently have 3 scrapbooks I'm working on.

48. I have two younger sisters. One is 14. The other one died at 6 months. She would be 19.

49. My sister that died is a hero. My parents donated her organs and at least 5 lives were saved.

50. I'm an organ donor.

I may add to this later, but that's it for now.