Feeling Blah

Ok, so I doubt anyone will read this but it will still feel good to just say what I feel. Lately, I've just been, I don't know what the word to describe it is. Just feeling blah, I guess. I don't really know why. Maybe it's the fact that most of my friends aren't around anymore or that everyone is getting married and having kids but me. I've finally accepted the fact that it's ok that I'm single right now because that's God's plan for me. However, that doesn't make it any less difficult. Life is so different from what I thought it would be ten years ago, even five years ago. I would not have pictured myself where I am today back then. Five years ago, I was still in college. I was just starting my junior year. That was definitely a year of learning for me. A whole lot has changed since then. I've lived in an apartment with a roommate, gotten a real job, moved out of the apartment, lived with two different families. I never would have guessed I would be where I am. I pictured myself as definitely married and maybe living in a house. If I wasn't married, I would've been close to it. Funny how our plans don't usually match God's plan when we don't ask him his plan first. Now I'm saving to buy my own house, that I'll hopefully be able to get in a few years. I've decided that I need to quit worrying about the future and to just trust God. He will guide me in the right direction I should go. He would not give me the desire to marry unless it was going to happen. So I am going to wait on him to bring the right person in my life and not try and look at every person and see if they are the right person. That's too much of a pain. If I let God lead, then I don't have to worry because he has my best interests at heart. I guess that's it for now.